Father

The glass shattering; an illusion in my mind
Maybe we’re all damned to jell
I’ll be fine, pretending I’m not.
Screams erupting in my chest
Never escaping my lips
God-for-fucking-bid I feel
I’m the fuckup; the waste
The judged; the damned; the one you’re ashamed of.
They one you can’t stand
I’m going through phases
You’re putting me through hell
You’re the one who fucked me up
If I could ever be good enough,
I’d try
But sadly I’m only a mistake in your eyes.
A flaw in your perfect fucking life.
A freak; a mistake.
I’ll always be there, sticking out
I’m nothing in your eyes,
But, you just don’t know what you have
Till it’s gone.