I will not

Trying to hold on, losing grip on myself.
Choking on his lies, of which all are vain.
Wearing down the time I have left.
Choking, gasping for one last breathe.
Seeing you in my dreams,
Except you weren’t there.
Trying to erase the past
Leaving a path for the future.
Seeing the stones laying on the path, crumble and fall.
A mind so twisted, so decayed.
So hurt, so betrayed
All this hate locked inside
Dying to escape, to break.
Needing freedom to unleash the anger within.
The rage, the lashing of pain
Building, higher and higher.
Pushing the limits, till I cannot breathe anymore.
Choking on my breath, feeling the anger being pulled out.
An ear shattering scream echoing the walls of my mind.
I’m in quarantine, my soul is trapped
Within my own hell.
The hell in my mind, the chaos that leaves me blind.
The choking of my sobs, the cries from my mouth.
A pitiful right indeed, the building of pure hate.
The monster, bursting out.
No pity, No pain.
The monster is insane.
Ruthless and violent lashing upon helpless victims.
Never stopping until fully satisfied.
The strength it takes to cave in the monster.
Turning into another blank person,
Who is just a soulless person in this blank world.